Hanging by a moment- Lifehouse

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you
I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you

Forgetting all I'm lacking
Completely incomplete
I'll take your invitation
You take all of me now...

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into
Just hanging by a moment here with you

There's nothing else to lose
There's nothing else to find
There's nothing in the world
That can change my mind
There is nothing else
There is nothing else
There is nothing else

Desperate for changing
Starving for truth
I'm closer to where I started
Chasing after you....

I'm falling even more in love with you
Letting go of all I've held onto
I'm standing here until you make me move
I'm hanging by a moment here with you
I'm living for the only thing I know
I'm running and not quite sure where to go
And I don't know what I'm diving into

Just hanging by a moment here with you
Just hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment (here with you)
Hanging by a moment here with you

Science Education

Today I re-enrolled in my Science Education course, this is my back up plan so i have something to go back to if i don't get an offer from another university or if i decide the offer isn't worth it. This means ill still have a job, an apartment and a good timetable.

UAC course list

This is my preference list so far... depending on what offer i get will determine that answer to my last post.

1. B psychology- Sydney Uni
2. B Primary Edu- Sydney Uni
3. B Psychology- Western Sydney
4. B Primary Edu- Wollongong
5. B Arts/ M Teaching- Western Sydney
6. B Social Science (psychology)/ B Teaching (secondary)- Charles Sturt
7. B Policing- Western Sydney

Decision making

Decision making is one of my biggest down falls... Im really bad at it. Id prefer someone make all my decisions for me and not give me any choices, then i would be able to just get things done and not waist time worrying that I've made the wrong choice.

Current decision I'm faced with concerns Uni.
I can choose one of the following;

1. Not go to uni and keep working for the hotel and make money and focus on other things then down the line get an education.
2. Go back to the uni I was at doing the same degree (which i had to defer due to illness) and continue working for the hotel on weekends and still be under my DET scholarship.
3. Change degrees to one which I'm interested in and might have a hope of passing, but having to move, and find a new job, new apartment and have to pay off a massive debt to the DET and have a HECS debt as well.... ect..
4. Quit uni, move home... find a job there. Be able to see my boyfriend.

Starting again.... as always

I sux at this blogging thing. This will be my 4 th blog.. the others never made it. And i doubt this one will either. I feel like I've waisted much of the last 2 years, what I have done has in the most part been unhelpful or just plain self-destructive... I purposely avoided people and social situations, even work and uni. Making my life very boring and pointless. Yet again this week I've talked myself out of a camping trip with a old friend, a work christmas party and a carols service for church.

Speaking of church i havent been to a service for over a month and before that one off its was 4 months. I know i should be going to church and i guess im some what expected to go but i cant do it, there are to many people and to many questions and..... i dont know....